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Apr. 26th, 2006 @ 04:21 am Damn it...
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Latest Diagnosis: jealousjealous
Listening to: computer hum
I got up a few minutes ago, and had a thought that made my mind not want to shut off again. I went to bed early today to make sure I could get up early enough to get my check cashed, etc. before work. Not too sure how that's gonna happen now, though I am in the process of enjoying more sleep drugs.

Sometimes I really hate living in my own head. Or maybe it's my heart, I'm not too sure. Either way, one of them is a jealous, pitiable fuck. x + 2 = 4, solve for x. If time is really going in a loop, is this the day of the patio or the garage? Does it matter? Both were disgusting frames of mind. I know, go cryptic boy, right?

Anyway, it's none of my damned business, regardless of my feelings on the subject. Jealousy is quite possibly my least favorite emotion. It makes me hate myself, especially when I have no right to be jealous.

The fact that you should not lie to loved ones trumps this.

The fact that I'm more worried about her than anything else trumps all that.

Stay good, Brian. Stay good. I know, I know. It's difficult.
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Date:April 27th, 2006 02:33 am (UTC)

Least favorite Emotion

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I do not like what I become when Jealousy takes hold. However, I don't think it falls into my least favorite emotions.

My least favorite feelings is best defined as being unsure. Whether it is not being sure where you stand with a person or group of people or if it is that doubting feeling of being unsure what your future holds. I guess in mind the monster that is jealousy can be easily harnessed into something else, but the unsure feeling about the past/present/future sucks.

In any event, If you need to talk you know how to find me